My medical condition continues to be a mystery. It is clear that I do not have any of the big nasty things - brain tumour, cracked skull, stroke, etc - as these have been ruled out by MRI investigation. Nonetheless I continue to have persistent, continuous head pain that varies in intensity and I become exhausted by the least effort so that I am functioning like an invalid incapable of doing very much. There is always a possibility that the whole syndrome is a side effect of the blood thinning medication that I take to counter my lung embolisms, but a recent change of this medication has not made any difference to my symptoms and ceasing all medication might put me in a different kind of jeopardy as the embolisms can be fatal. It is also possible that the head pains could be related to a fall and head injury that I sustained at the end of February. The fall was itself the result of fainting due to lack of oxygen due to the embolisms. More fundamentally, we do not know why my body makes embolisms in the first place. I am in on-going discussion with a variety of experts and hope eventually to make some sense of it and, hopefully, find a solution. My general debility is making me less than normally productive. My faith means that I have no worries, but I would like to solve the mystery and restore my full ability to contribute to life.

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Comment by David Brazier on August 21, 2019 at 10:13

Thanks, David - wise words indeed.

Comment by David Kilburn on August 21, 2019 at 10:01

One of the human body’s most remarkable characteristics is its ability to restore and repair itself, often under seemingly hopeless circumstances. This does not always happen quickly or easily and a 100% success is never certain.  

Mental attitude is a contributor to this, though in mysterious ways. I discovered this many years ago, lying in a hospital bed, totally paralysed with a broken neck (“the hangman’s fracture”).  I overheard two doctors discussing whether I would survive another day or not.  A vast surge of energy swept through me, and, at that same moment I knew I would survive, and so I did.

Much later, talking to my surgeon a highly skilled and intuitive man, he said to me. “Sometimes when a patient is critically ill we find they know more about what is happening within their bodies than we, as doctors, can ever perceive. And some can also summon resources and energy from within that gets them through a crisis.

Much more recently, following yet another accident, I was discussing what to do about a persistent neurological pain. My surgeon commented “there is nothing Western medicine can do, apart from prescribe painkillers. However, you can learn to control this via meditation.

I am sure the use of blood thinners and maybe other drugs is wise. However, do not trust them completely. Within your mind I am sure there must be powerful and curative forces you can channel.

Comment by David Brazier on August 8, 2019 at 11:52

Thanks, Mo. I'm now on a drug that suppresses most of the head pain which is a relief, though it has some side effects that are troublesome. I hope it all settles down. Life goes on. I have had wonderful help from good friends who have been visiting.

Comment by Mo Henderson on August 7, 2019 at 17:44

I have found you have been in my thoughts a lot recently David. It is now August 7th and I'm wishing your health has improved and you now have an idea, through your discussions with experts,of diagnosis and what will be most healing for it. It must be difficult not to know what is going on. I find your example of courage and acceptance an inspiration, as you say your faith brings a freedom from worry and you seem to always illustrate that in your communications.

Thinking of you and sending all good healing wishes. 

Comment by David Brazier on July 12, 2019 at 11:38

Thanks, Therakesh. After contemplating the I Ching judgement for some time I was left with the words "perseverence" and "gentle control" which do seem apt for my situations.

Comment by Tharakesh Palanisamy on July 11, 2019 at 21:22

Hi Dharmvidya,

So sorry to hear about your medical condition. I wonder if an inquiry to the I Ching would shed some light on the situation. Sending you good wishes!

Comment by David Brazier on July 9, 2019 at 6:46

Thank you, Vajra. Namo Amida Bu !

Comment by Vajrapala Lut Moerman on July 8, 2019 at 20:17

Hope you are soon better, hope pain leaves you and you feel free to do whatever you would like to go for.

Praying for you. Deep bow, all my love,


Comment by David Brazier on June 27, 2019 at 9:18

Thanks, Désirée. A lesson in patience. Khanti-paramita.

Comment by Désirée Verstraete on June 27, 2019 at 5:48

I feel sad about this for you David. The heat will certainly not be so good if you don't feel well.

You have already contributed a lot in this life, maybe now it's time for a bit Wu Wei.

We still are capable of reading your thoughts in your good books and texts and when you are better, we can talk about it. I hope you heal soon! x

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