On 6 February, when I was still in hospital, a good friend in Spain sent me this lovely mail...
Yesterday I felt very worried and sad when I read the bad news, so today reading your own words and seeing your photo with your laptop and that healthy looking, made me feel a great relief and very happy for you. Besides, having your friends and family with you will be the best pill of all.
I usually go to my bedroom and sit there to do my meditation, As you know I am Christian, but my practice is very personal, a sort of contemplation, I would say that is like a combination of Nei Quan and Chi quan meditation...I think.
But yesterday I wanted to make some offering to you and I practised my first Nembutsu. I do not know if it is like that: I did some walking meditation and with each step and exhalation I repeated to myself "Namo Amida Bu", understanding these words like" I surrender my bombu nature to you (Amida) while I feel your total and eternal embracement, acceptance, compassion and love supporting us in each step"
It was a great experience,though maybe this is not the proper way of doing it....(.Anyway I am used to create my own practices or do my own version of them...). The words were not familiar to me but I really recognized the feelings and the connection, so concepts were falling apart.
Of course this is not important at all, but I wanted to share it with you. I think that the main thing now is faith...and that you are feeling better.
With her permission, I am sharing it here as it gives such a wonderful sense of the spirit of nembutsu practice.
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